Woo Hoo....

Today was such a memorable day... i will never ever forget it... It started at mid night... Flooded on msn... swamped on my phone till it jammed... thank you every one... i dunno what to say... you guys rock ma world... Shaiful... nani... salleh... Naz... Kenneth lai/koh... so many more... haha... felt so happy.... morning i got up... went to clare's place to finish up work... after that... i met shawn gwen syarif... and the badminton peeps... some of them... julie ronald yong jie... lioness peng yong... ronnie... wow... we went for seasons greeting to evans place... there i asked where salman and bert were... evan say they went out to get something... so we were having fun in evans house la... the badminton peeps ate first... me shawn gwen and syarif waited for salman and bert... when they came they had something in their hand.... i heard salman and bert went to 3 diff places to get it... i was so go damned shocked... then there was the cake cutting... OH MY FREAKING GOD.... i was so god damn shocked... BLACK FOREST CAKE... arg... i love you guys man... you guys rule... even though i got cake smashed in ma face... GOD... salman you rule... shawn you rule... bert you rule... gwen... haha... what can i say... man... unbelievable... i was so freaking happy and pai seh at the same time... the last time i had cake cutting was years ago... and BLACK forest.... racist ah?? ahhahaa... you rule....you all do... i am so glad to haveyou guys as ma BROS.... peace out guys... Oh yeah... I heart nani ellen... hahahahhahahahahahahaha....

babe.......

Hey... seems like thing are settleing down... po... i am happy for you... yeah.. Now seems like i got chance... ;) [cheeky grin]... haha... anyhow... things are getting busier by the second... the good news is that it will end soon... very soon... gotta work overtime... Its a thankless job but someone's gotta do it... yeah... back breaking work.... mind numbing work... on top of that... gotta redo stuff.... man... i am gonna plain black out on of these days... no not literally... more like blank out... and stare into space... well welcome to my life... but dun worry people... i'll get through this things as i have done in the past... the master of improvision will never be downed so easily... haha... as much as i like improvising... i still gotta work to schedule... in fact i gotta get a schedule... dead lines approaching... good thing most of the stuff is done... i was actually planning to rant... but thing took a turn for the better... so i decided not to rant...yeah... well.. thats all i gotta say now...

This world, this world is cold
But you don’t, you don’t have to go
You’re feeling sad you’re feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
You’re mother’s gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bare
But we all bleed the same way as you do
We all have the same things to go thru

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

Your days you say they’re way too long
And your nights you can’t sleep at all (hold on)
And you’re not sure what you’re looking for
But you don’t want to no more
And you’re not sure what you’re waiting for
But you don’t want to no more
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don’t stop looking you’re one step closer
Don’t stop searching it’s not over...hold on


What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you’re doing to me?
Go ahead...what are you waiting for?

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don’t stop looking you’re one step closer
Don’t stop searching it’s not over...
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know...
hold on...

I just like this song... its something that i have to keep in mind... days are long and hard... a tonne of stuff... only my shoulders to hold it up....i know it will get better... stuff just get a little hard to handle... sometimes hard to comprehend... life just aint easy anymore... not that i expected it to be... i cant help it if stuff happen... i just hope to get through it all... And Wei Yew thanks man for the concern... i'll get through it.... Happy Chinese new year to all...

babe...

I was looking for a healing song and i think this is the best i could find... yeah.. sometimes things just don't go the way you want it too... it happens... sometimes more often than not.. well we gotta learn to pick ourselves up again... i changed my life cuz i tried over and over... i am sure the mentality would help... and if someone ever needs a shoulder to cry on... there is always a big one here... a listening ear... big too... a gentle heart... someone you can rely on... that person will always be here... so cheer up... Keep your face to the sun... and god will take care of the shadows... and remember... everyone goes through some type of problems... the best we can do is to move on... remember... SMILE...

[TRY AGAIN: WESTLIFE]

Hush now don't you cry
There will be a better day
I promise you
We can work it out
But only if you let me know
What's on your mind

Baby, you thought it was forever
Through any kind of weather

But some day you will find what you're searching for

Try again
Never stop believing
Try again
Don't give up on your love
Stumble and fall
Is the heart of it all
When you fall down (down)
Just try again

Smile now, let it go
Hey, you will never be alone
I promise you
If you can't fight the feeling (Oh yeah)
Surrender in your heart

Remember love will set you free

Baby, you thought it was forever
You would always be together
But someday you will find what you're searching for

Try again
Never stop believing
Try again
Don't give up on your love
Stumble and fall
Is the heart of it all
When you fall down (down)
Just try again

Baby, when a heart is crying
Its sometimes feels like dying
The tear drops fall like rain

Baby, you thought it was forever
You would always be together
But someday you will find what you're searching for

Try again (ooh yeah)
Never stop believing (oh no)
Try again
Don't give up on your love
(Dont' give up on your love baby)

Try again
(just try again)
Never stop believing
Try again
Don't give up on your love

Stumble and fall
Is the heart of it all

When you fall down
Just try again

GOD

Its been longer still since i met you...
where have you been ...
its been all too long...
all too long since i've seen..
you lovely gaze..
leaves me amazed...
you lovely touch..
i miss so much...

Damn... its been another long long day... so long that i did not even get a chance to see her... i haven seen her for more than a week... previously we had the chance to see each other at least 3 times a week... now... its less than one... we hardly talk... we hardly laugh... we hardly even say good bye... today was more or less fruitful... we did at least half of what we need to do... for NTU... Council wise we did some of the logistics... we need to get it done asap... tomorrow is chinese new year... we need to do the AV stuff too.... haiz... so so much to do... so little time... and i do hope i get to see her tomorrow... And CY YOU ROCK MA WORLD BABY.... and now... i silently leave

skq

oh man... i am just plain tired... beat... and pissed... i gotta think of games for orientation... we gotta rush the proposal.. and well i feel like a piece of crap... and given the fact that rumours flying around that i dun pull my weight in worl around... so wtf... i dun give a shit damn pieces of shit... i mean... If you follow me around and see what i do... you'd think i'd gone mad... going to the library to get the damn research... EVERYDAY... i mean if you don't know what the shit you are talking about... then SHUT THE HELL UP... seriously... is i got no game... i would'nt have joined up... try living my life... maybe you can work it out better than i can... like i aint got enough stuff to deal with... you dump more stuff at me last minute... so what ya expect me to do... shut up and follow intructions?? to hell man... you gotta cut me some slack... if you think i am not doing enough tell it to ma face... dun talk behind the back... tell me and i will try harder... are you guys old enough and you want to talk behind the back... how old are you Kindergarteners?? so tell it to ma face or buzz cuz no one is gonna push me around without any FACTUAL backing...

HOW beautiful, how beautiful you streamed upon my sight,
In glory and in grandeur, as a gorgeous sunset-light!
How softly, soul-subduing, fell your words upon mine ear,
Like low aerial music when some angel hovers near!
What tremulous, faint ecstasy to clasp your hand in mine,
Till the darkness fell upon me of a glory too divine!
The air around grew languid with our intermingled breath,
And in your beauty's shadow I sank motionless as death.
I saw you not, I heard not, for a mist was on my brain--
I only felt that life could give no joy like that again.

And this was Love, I knew it not, but blindly floated on,
And now I'm on the ocean waste, dark, desolate, alone;
The waves are raging round me--I'm reckless where they guide;
No hope is left to right me, no strength to stem the tide.
As a leaf along the torrent, a cloud across the sky,
As dust upon the whirlwind, so my life is drifting by.
The dream that drank the meteor's light--the form from Heav'n has flown--
The vision and the glory, they are passing--they are gone.
Oh! love is frantic agony, and life one throb of pain;
Yet I would bear its darkest woes to dream that dream again.

I found this nice poem while surfing... i think it would mean alot to someone... [hint hint]... yeah... it mean alot to me too ... well see ya..

16/1

Arg... today was sheer exhaution and down right spastic... i think i'll go mad by the time i turn 18... and thats very soon... damn man... econs was spastic as usual but i got to perservere.. i dun want to end up losing my grades because of myself hating a teacher... follow azri's words and be the man you hate.... or in this case woman... i gotta get my stuff down right... i finally got to see her today... man... its a lifting sensation... i hope to experience the feeling again... the rest of the lessons were ok... maths was a little how shall i put it... spastic is the word but i'll manage... P.E. was murder...man... i din know i lost so much of my fitness level... happens when you dun go training and dun exercise... man.. i gotta get back to my original fitness level... i was out of breath and was like heaving myself around... WTH... wheezing is the more appropriate word...

after school rushed down to NTU... the library... a lot of work... but its very difficult cuz we were a little short handed and the library was too big... thanks goes to dhava and dorinda for not showing... applause... we finished at like what 8 o clock... madness... i gotta get rest... and i need a break... two different thing mind you...well other than that i spent 3 hours in total online chatting with "po"... alright... peace out peeps...

hey man

Ever get the feeling of wanting something but not getting it...
thats the feeling i got when i saw you..
its been quite a while since we last met...
i am wondering where have been...
life can be so cruel..
mother nature evil...
but that won't stop me anymore..
i will keep coming from you...

Man life last friday sucked... i din see her and i was busy like the whole day with ntu stuff... yeah lesson were'nt perfect as well... god damn it... i think my econs teacher [unable to disclose name due to government policy] is mad... i have no idea what got into her... it was the second time she sent me out of class.... lets go back to thursday...
[Flash Back]... double period of econs... nearing the end of the period ... she gave us a break... 5 minutes or so she said... so we went to the toilet at the science block then went to the canteen area... then we were walking back to class... she just closed the door on us.. [ us is cole, shu yuen, jai, and myself ]... so alright... it was cool... she gave us our work back and we stood outside eating tid bits and stuff...din matter then cuz we were'nt doing anything illegal...

friday... econs lesson... all of us were in class.. maybe a little slow as its after break.. but i was in class all the way so she should'nt have any complaints... my paper fell to the floor in front of me.. so i went to pick it up...as i was walking back to my seat.. she suddenly shouted saying stop walking so slow... and that she was waiting for me..... what the hell.. i was already at my seat.. i sit in front.. so its bull that i am wasting her time... i retorted saying that the class is waiting for her in an incensed manner and sat down... i could not be bothered with her...pissed.. so ok... i was looking through my notes studying them on my own...then yong jie was asking a question so shu yuen and myself were like explaining to him... she just came up and asked him... WHO IS YOUR ECONS TEACHER??? i was like what the fuck... its wrong to quell your doubts... so it happens that i left my pen on shu yuen's table... so i had to turn again to retreive it while at the same time shu yuen wanted to ask me a word on the board.. she just pointed to us and asked us to get out of class... so we got out... shu yeun was walking towards the canteen... she said to stand outside the class but he din give a shit... so she told me to go after him... i did... but i continued with him towards the canteen... buy some stuff and head back to class...he walked in back to his seat.. the teacher told him not to be defiant... and he threw his pen to the table.. then she said.. you still throw your pen?? then he threw it out the window.. she then told him to get out again... just then the bell rang.. and he told her.. ' now its time for you to get out' though she din hear it... he repeated and she still din hear at which point shu yuen just ignored her... then she left the class... what a BIATCH... the class was trying to calm shu yuen down.. what the hell... what an incident... what a piece of shit... then the rest of the day was pure busy... i din have tim to talk to her... or anyone for that matter... doing ntu/jc... then had a slight break where i went to the den with keong and jacq and we just chatted... that was good... but b4 long i had to go back and finish up...after which i went to bugis to meet bin hong and bridget and we studied again...

so it is in my scientific opinion that the econs teacher is suffering from menopause...or certain form of mental illness with similar symptoms... i think i am going to get shit from jason tomorrow... but what the heck...i dun give a shit... lets see what happens tomorrow...

orientation 4

hello all.. oreintation day four quite literally the best..... i love ma kids man.. they rule... draco was a little sad that they din win but i know they gave their best... you guys will always stay in ma heart guys... draco 5 kids... you guys are the best... i still remember the first day when all of your were quiet... man was i intimidated... but you guys warmed up to me... yeah.. the damn pole dancing... and stuff... haha... will never ever forget that... no sir... haha.. i am definitely glad that you guys changed your views about MI... you won regret your decisions... yeah... and the pidtures... how could you do that to me... i was clean enough without having saop i ma hair yeah.... haha... i will never regret having you guys in ma OG... it has been one of my most happiest times shall i say... even if we have to part always remember that i will always be your OGL and Draco... i will always be your CLAN LEADER.... as stupid as i may be at times i am glad you guys loved orientation... and as you guys said... it was due to the OGL's... well... i really dun know what else to say... i'll be seeing you on monday i guess... yeah... and give the school a shot... you never know where it will take you... DRACO... YOU GUYS ROCK MA SHORTS

orientation

well.... for the past three days of orientation... i screwed up like shit la... i dunno what the hell i am doing... i dun have many people to talk to... well manan sez we can talk to him... but i feel a little intimidated by him...i dunno what to do... what to say... i feel like shit... i do hope i can do better tomorrow...i mean... being told that draco lost becuz of me is like a bullet through the heart... i would have rather died there and then than being told in the face that i hade draco lose... haiz... no chance in hell other than tomorrow to redeem myself... i will never ever forget the silence... also... one of me kids... haiz... was a little vulgar.. if it was to me i would not have mind... but it was to a senior... well even though the senior is enthu and happening... it does not give any onr the right to disrespect them... another time i felt like shit... in fact worse than shit... damn it man... i love ma kids..and i do hope there is no repeat of the incident... i could also tell the keong was a little pissed.... well... i will have to agree with taukik that tomorrow will be our best and last day... i really hope i dun screw this one up... i cant afford another mishap if i may put it as such... also the dare part well we wanted to dare a guy to propose to michelle... but... respect was the issue again... well now that i know... i won't do it again... not ever... haiz.. rain stopped like tonnes of our activities... that sucked... i am just feeling f**ked up... also i was told to do some shit about a damn write up which i have no damn clue about.... WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO??? IS THAT HARD TO ANSWER CLEARLY DAMN It???? WHAT JUST TELLING ME STEM CELL AND DO A WRITE UP WILL GET ANYTHING DONE??? WHO AM I??? SUPERMAN??? FLASH??? I DUN HAVE A DAMN CLUE!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!! DUN DUMP STUFF TO ME WITHOUT TELLING ME ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!! ITS JUST PLAIN IRRESPONSIBLE!!!!! ARG!!!!!!!!!!! MY LIFE IS SHIT!!!!!!!

rant over....

well i still go stuff to say but i will keep it for tomorrow... well see ya peepz...

Orientation tomorrow

well... tomorrow is orientation.. Best of luck to all of us... i do hope i dun screw up or anything cuz that would like suck so bad... i mean... its like 1000 ++ peeps... screwin up would lead to major dissing.. so this warnin goes out to all... i do hope i get a decent number of peeps who will turn up... i mean.. no point having like 10 peeps in the og... it would not matter... now unto other matters... i would like to thank Daryl for the daryl awards.... apparently i won the best male category... i would like to thank... Blah Blah Yaduh yaduh.. daryl and so on and so worth... apparently i won due to my charisma, grades in school and for my love of gundams... haha... i din know they were a criteria... so everyone... never dismiss a liking of something... you never know where it might lead you yeah..
Anyhow... most of my "kids" as the seniors put them, are nice.. actually they sound nice on the phone... i have no idea how they will be in person...i am also kinda dreading the fact that as a caln leader i gotta face like 150 peeps... that is just sheer mind boggleing... its different when your on stage as you dun expect a response... here you gotta get response and ideasout of them... WITHOUT instigating a riot...its gonna be one helluva challenge...Oh yeah.. our So called introduction is complete... i am gonna be moronic as usual... and gonna be feeling pretty stupid by the end of it all... No kick i should say.. i do this everyday... so i guess i got no problem making a fool out of myself... My partner in crime this time is LEONG... what a pair... well i will have to report how the forst da went anyhow... also gotta practice our dance... This is gonna be hilarious.. one minute i am a rocker... the next a bomb... you'll know what i mean when you have seen the dance... Kian Siong did a great job with the song... so we are all set... any how more on this tomorrow... till then nights...